Big plans but no time....

So... in hopes of getting into the program I've been getting my financial aid stuff in line now. I decided to look at the course schedule for the students who make it in to see when my classes would be if I make it. Turns out they are booked solid! They have us going Monday , Tuesday and Thursday from 8am to 730pm and a night class on wednesday. Which leaves me with a huge problem of daycare issues.... my daycare closes at 6pm as do most and my husbands hours are crazy and always changing so now im left to find a sitter for evenings for 3 months... what a pain. Well you would think that I have enough on my plate with college, kids and daycare issues, but nope, I apparently need more lol, I decided to do something big this year for my mom's birthday and as usual, it takes months of planning.. I want to take her to see cirque du soleil in Las Vegas. I know money will be a huge issue but I do have an aunt that works as a black jack dealer out there so im going to hit her up for some help. On top of that I've got Easter around the corner and Antonio is turning 10 this year ( huge for him) he gets to get his first military ID card! So since he wants to go to a skate rink for his birthday I have to plan in advance for that as well....lol and still find time to start my project that God has tasked me with. Man ive got a full plate.. Im hoping that all this stuff will keep me busy enough to not think about eating food and maybe I can loose some pounds at the same time. lol

How do they do it?

I am positively stumped how a kids only 3 feet tall can wreck an entire room in like 5 seconds. Last night he emptied an entire box of Q-tips out in my bedroom. It looked like it snowed in there! lol Then today while I was doing dishes I noticed it was rather quiet when I found him he had drew with red permanent marker all over his body and face. So this evening it was to no suprise that I found my bedroom yet again the site of disaster.... He had taken every crayon I had and broken them and thrown them all over my room. I thought you all would enjoy seeing this so I took a few pics of it. As you can see being a mess master is hard work. lol

Good News!

Yesterday has been a constant overload of good news. It started that morning while I was doing the dishes I put off from last night (when I say doing I mean by hand) I was doing what I always do while I wash the dishes... singing loudly and thinking about the days schedule. But little did I know I was about to get a very important message. Now you should know that although I am a christian I've never been asked to do anything in particular by God. But that morning while I was doing dishes, I suddenly was given a vision and a goal, I had no idea why but I was compelled to do this. I decided it must be very important so I am taking on the task I feel God wants me to do. And although I am wondering and hoping that its for a good reason I have to do it. So with all of that on my mind as I headed out the door for class, a friend of the family, (my husbands army Buddie) stopped by to ask me where I got my tattoo's at. I found this very ironic that he would bring this up just after I decided not to go thru with mine, and I pondered it's meaning for a bit on the drive to daycare to drop off my 4 yr old. Just as I had forgotten about the conversation and that was largely due to my child doing a Houdini in the car seat, I was asked by the 3 daycare ladies about the tattoo I have on my right chest of a hummingbird, they all expressed how much they liked it and were getting their own tattoos. I couldn't help but think to myself what is God trying to say? Is this a hint that me getting my tattoo's isn't such a bad thing after all? Then on my way to class, my husband calls to tell me that he got his extension approved! which means I can go to classes if I get in! With all the good news going I wondered when the bad was going to hit... Then the radio started playing a song about This is the Day.... I was overcome with giddy happiness and decided just to revel in the day, I'm sure the bad is just around the corner but that's another day....lol

Moving on...

well lots has been happening lately here in GA, I've been waiting patiently to hear back from my college program to see if I made the cut, we are also waiting to hear back from my husbands branch commander to see if his orders to Ft. Campbell can be deleted and give us the extension he put in for. And while all that waiting is going on other things have been put on hold like, finding a summer camp for the boys, figuring out the best way to fit in a vacation this year. Still other things have been put off permanently such as, getting my tattoo.. I know many of you were opposed to this anyway and probably see it as for the best. Out of all of these new found discoveries and waiting for a new path to start for my family, the one that I'm slowly coming to terms with is letting go of the past. I've tried diligently to keep up with people I assumed where friends of mine from the past, but I'm finding out that many of them were simply just social friends. And while it pains me to think that I might not have any true friendships, I know that there is a small chance social friends can become true friends. If any lessons come from starting down this new path it will be I have to let go of the past, and move on .

Should I stay or should I go?

Well we found out yesterday that we are moving in September back to Kentucky. If this were after I had completed my college I would be fine with it, but I'm still waiting to see if I got into the program. If I did I will have two options, either turn down my spot and leave or I can move off post with my 3 boys and rent here while my husband goes on to Kentucky and move over there in about a year. Either way isn't great in my opinion. I really want to stay and get the classes if I make it , but I also know that Medical Diagnostic Sonography is new program at the school and hasn't been accredited yet. There is a huge demand for sonographers though so coming from an accredited school might not be a huge problem to get started in the field but its at the back of my mind. I'm hoping maybe I can transfer some of my college courses to another school up there as a possibility to finish up but I have heard that a technical school's classes cant be transferred. There is always a road block. As I look at the situation its kinda funny, on one hand its super stressful to decide what to do but I cant help thinking I asked for this because I have been praying to God for him to move us out of this crappy housing for months now lol. So in a way he answered my prayers but not the way i expected him too. God has a great sense of humor. So now I'm stuck with the big decision of if I get into the school program do I take the spot and stay here with the boys on my own until December 2010 or pass it up and move to Kentucky with my husband and look for something there and put my college on hold yet again. Its a truly tough decision for me and I'm so torn.

A dying Tradition

While talking to my mother today I realized that when all my aunts and uncles have past away so will the long standing tradition of family get together. My mother being from a family of 7 always kept in touch and had monthly family reunions with her entire family, I can recall going to them ever since i was a small child. Now at 32 my mom and her sister are all that are carrying on this tradition, My grandparents have past away and get together are less and less. Realizing that once my mother and father pass away there will be no one to hold these family reunions made me a bit sad. As I told my mom that I felt the tradition would die away with her, I could almost hear the sadness in her voice. I then came up with a notion that absolutely frightens me,
Me and Chon have always wanted a large family, and we really wanted to carry on the family reunion tradition with our family, and now, against all fibers of my being, I am going to try and include my detached family. This is no small task, since my brother and I have not been on speaking terms in about 15yrs. and My sister and I only socially talk. But for my mother's sake I am going to try and carry on her family's tradition so it wont die out.